Whatever you do in life it will be insignificant.

Mul on uus lemmikfilm. Polegi midagi nii head varem näinud. Armastuslugu küll jah, aga oma keeruliste keerdkäikudega, mis annab äärmiselt palju mõtlemisainet. Ja tegemiselt ei ole roosa ninnunännu filmiga. Soundtrack on ka painav ja kummitav, juba see annab filmile nii palju juurde. Kahju ainult, et see väga levinud ja populaarne pole, seda võiks paljud näha, sest see on vaatamist väärt.

Here we are layin’ on this big ball of planet, spinnin’ round and round in space, and all these stars floating next to us. No one even thinks twice about it.

mu esimese poolmaratonini on hetkeseisuga jäänud täpselt 24 päeva. olen juba igas mõttes trennilainel: nii vaimselt kui füüsiliselt. pean ikka päris kõvasti rassima, et see valutult läbida ning ma usun, et seda ma ka teen. olen ikka märgatavalt rohkem end liiigutama hakanud (eile käisin näiteks jõusaalis ja pärast veel 10-kilomeetrisel jooksuringil) ja kui aus olla, siis ei jõua ma oma jooksutavaari kohalejõudmist ära oodata. aga see kõik pole ainult selleks, et olla kiirem, tugevam. seal on midagi veel. see on see tunne, kui sa oled endast jagu saanud, läinud välja, et nautida päikest, tuult, vihma või mida iganes, et sa parem pingutad, kui vaatad tühja pilguga arvutiekraani. oled justkui kunstnik, kes vormib oma keha ja tugevdab oma tahtejõudu. selle tunde vastu ei saa lihtsalt miski.

The most painful goodbyes are those that even though they were never said, the heart already knows it’s over.

kaleycakesx3:

‎”When people hurt you over and over, think of them like a sand paper. They may scratch and hurt you a bit but in the end, you end up polished and they end up useless.” - Chris Colfer

 Only once in your life, I truly believe, you find someone who can completely turn your world around. You tell them things that you’ve never shared with another soul and they absorb everything you say and actually want to hear more. You share hopes for the future, dreams that will never come true, goals that were never achieved and the many disappointments life has thrown at you. When something wonderful happens, you can’t wait to tell them about it, knowing they will share in your excitement. They are not embarrassed to cry with you when you are hurting or laugh with you when you make a fool of yourself. Never do they hurt your feelings or make you feel like you are not good enough, but rather they build you up and show you the things about yourself that make you special and even beautiful. There is never any pressure, jealousy or competition but only a quiet calmness when they are around. You can be yourself and not worry about what they will think of you because they love you for who you are. The things that seem insignificant to most people such as a note, song or walk become invaluable treasures kept safe in your heart to cherish forever. Memories of your childhood come back and are so clear and vivid it’s like being young again. Colours seem brighter and more brilliant. Laughter seems part of daily life where before it was infrequent or didn’t exist at all. A phone call or two during the day helps to get you through a long day’s work and always brings a smile to your face. In their presence, there’s no need for continuous conversation, but you find you’re quite content in just having them nearby. Things that never interested you before become fascinating because you know they are important to this person who is so special to you. You think of this person on every occasion and in everything you do. Simple things bring them to mind like a pale blue sky, gentle wind or even a storm cloud on the horizon. You open your heart knowing that there’s a chance it may be broken one day and in opening your heart, you experience a love and joy that you never dreamed possible. You find that being vulnerable is the only way to allow your heart to feel true pleasure that’s so real it scares you. You find strength in knowing you have a true friend and possibly a soul mate who will remain loyal to the end. Life seems completely different, exciting and worthwhile. Your only hope and security is in knowing that they are a part of your life.

Too bad people don’t fall in love at the same pace, at the same time, for the same reasons, and it’s too bad that those emotions don’t move simultaneously. But each bit of madness moved at its own pace, one not dependent on the pace of anyone else. It wasn’t like tandem skydiving, where you were connected as you fell, where you were forced to fall at the same rate and use the same parachute. Falling in love is a solo act. I knew that, I just learned the hard way. You just jump and hope that your parachute will open. Sometimes, you look up and realize that you were falling by yourself, the object of your desire still on the plane, not interested in jumping and watching you descend into that scary place alone.

What if I fall and hurt myself?
Would you know how to fix me
What if I went and lost myself?
Would you know where to find me
If I forgot who I am
Would you please remind me oh?
Cause without you things go hazy